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Half asleep

Damn, so of course Christy calls me at 1:32am. I answered my phone because I was dead asleep and totally forgot I am mad. Now I am awake I hope I’m able to go back to sleep. I need to keep my phone on silent all the time because I hate being woken up by it because I have problems sleeping. I just always forget and what if there was an emergency.

Oh yeah, Christy also told me that someone told Jake that she went to a strip club. I did not tell Jake. I didn’t even remember that crap because it was a long ass time ago. She is going to tell Alyssa not to come, I think, because she thinks she is trying to start drama and told Jake. I don’t think Alyssa was trying to start drama when she told me that today, but who knows. I think she just didn’t know. I think it was all my dad’s fault too. At least he most definitely tried to hide it from me.

If I was pissed at her to that extent, I would have told Jake a wholeeee lot more than about some strip club. I wouldn’t do that to any of my friends though, no matter how mad I was at them. I didn’t talk to Jake once today. Why would someone call him and tell him out of the blue? It was like a year ago… literally. Man, I probably look so guilty because I was mad and everyone knows it because of my mom, but I had nothing to do with it.

Jake won’t tell Christy who told him. Whoever it was must have been trying to start drama if Jake won’t say who it was. He better tell her, he’s her husband. Unless he doesn’t want to because this person may have more shit on her or something and he doesn’t want to ruin it with them. I don’t get it.

I just called the cops on some people who have been partying in the parking lot next to me for hours. This dog has also been barking for hours. I have no clue whose it is because only one other person here has a dog, and I know she is home. Damn fucking people piss me off. I hope the cops come soon. They are being noisy as fuck. I would scream out the window, but I don’t want to start shit. I am about to go outside and see if anyone is out there because of that damn dog. I know I first heard it at 11 and went out there.

Man, the dog has to be right next door to me. I just went out there. There used to be a lady that lived there during the summer that had 3 dogs, but she doesn’t live there anymore, and my landlord is telling everyone the can’t have dogs now. 3 dogs would be barking if it was her. I have no clue who even lives there. I thought no one did because my neighbor that has 2 cars has been parking in that spot. Someone has to live there though. I will ask my nosy neighbor next time I see her.

I called the actual police station, and I think they transfered me to 911. I just said I wanted to make a noise complaint. I have never once called the police over someone making noise, but I think I am going to start because also these new people above me seem to party too. Nah… I don’t want them to get mad at me. That dog has been going nuts for a looong time. Where the fuck are the police????

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Ruined

I am mad at Christy, Jake, my brother and my dad. I guess I am not going to go to their stupid 4th of July shit tomorrow. I hope I am still mad when I wake up. I probably won’t be. I’ve been mad as hell for hours though, so who knows. Not as mad as I was at first, but I’m still madddd. Usually I get over stuff pretty quickly, but not this.

The only thing that sucks is I have to see my mom tomorrow. She takes one of the same meds I take, and I don’t have enough until the 8th when I see my doctor. I will only allow my mom to bring it to me though.

I so wish I asked Alyssa (Christy’s friend) for her number today. She asked for mine. Alyssa has a big mouth, and she obviously wasn’t aware that something was supposed to be a secret because she told me.

I bought a season pass to the water park today. Christy got it on base for me because it was almost $20 cheaper. Christy and I got at the water park when it opened at 10. Alyssa met us there, and Christy left because she had to go to work and Alyssa asked if I wanted to stay with her. I think I mentioned Alyssa before. She’s the whore who needs a larger bathing suit (I’m not saying she’s a whore because of that, she just is).

Watch, something cool will happen tomorrow, and I will miss it. Nobody wanted Alyssa to come, but Christy was scared she’d drive by if she said that they weren’t going. For some reason Alyssa thought she was invited. I remember everyone saying they didn’t want her to come when everyone was there the day before fathers day.

She is nice and all, but annoying as fuck when she is drunk. She also has a huge crush on Jake’s friend Andy, and she gets out of control perverted around him. He doesn’t like her like that, and his mom is in town and she’s coming tomorrow too. One reason everyone didn’t want her to come is because she turns into a whore (or more of one) and his mom being there.

I was telling Alyssa today that I hope Andy’s mom will be okay because the guys kind of get out of control. Alyssa said she was thinking the same thing and she doesn’t want to have to censor herself lol. So I guess she plans on acting like a whore again.

I don’t care that she’s a whore. I am a whore when I feel like being one. I just do not let people know that other than my friends and on here. But I swear this girl talks about sleeping with men all day long.

I am not worried about going to bed early because I hope I don’t even go tomorrow. I want to go, but I am too mad. Oh… so I plan on going to the concert on Sunday by myself too. Everyone has their tickets, but I am not going with them. I didn’t really want to go with them anyways. I’ll be fine by myself. I just can’t drink because I have to drive.

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I was going to update, but never mind

I’m soooooo tired. I don’t know why because I slept fine last night. I’m getting kind of mad about something so I feel a mental breakdown coming. I just feel like going off on someone. I don’t know why because it’s something that happened a few weeks ago. Sometimes stuff will bother me, and sometimes it won’t. I shouldn’t do it.

I have stuff to do before the 4th and the 6th (the concert). I hope I have some energy tonight or tomorrow. I feel like going to sleep right now, but I know if I do I’ll be up all night, but I am soooo drowsy.

Uhhhhhhhh… it was a bad… or maybe a good idea to just call Christy to ask her somehting. She wants me to met her at Ocean Breeze right now. She just got there and it’s cheap right now because it’s late. OMG I am tired, but I need to do something to keep me awake. I am soooooo tired.

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Crazy stuff

Last night Allyson (my cousin) started talking about her brother. Her mom gave her brother up for adoption to one of her friends when he was a baby (I think). Allyson has never met him. I have met him before. Allyson is 15. I don’t know how old her brother is, but he’s a few years older than me. The last time I saw him, I ran into him at the beach when I was 16. The last time I really saw him was at my Grandma’s when I was in 6th grade maybe. I remember a lot about him, and I always tell her stuff about him. She wants to find him. We decided to search for him last night.

He doesn’t have a myspace. We all know he has been in trouble with the law a lot. I remembered that you can search for case information on the internet if someone has been to court. I found the Virginia site, and I searched for him. We both were spelling his last name wrong. I asked Ally if there’s another way to spell it. She didn’t know, so I searched for a different spelling in the white pages just to see how many people came up to determine if it was a possible spelling for his last name. It was, and I went back to the court page, and we found his info.

Wow, so weird. I just searched for him again on there, and more shit came up than last night.

CHRISTOPHER MICHAEL
CONTEMPT OF COURT-FTA (I suppose “FTA” means failure to appear)
01/20/2005 Other

CHRISTOPHER MICHAEL
FTC/WITH CCP
01/20/2005 Guilty Plea

CHRISTOPHER MICHAEL
VIOLATION OF PROBATION
04/26/2005 Fugitive

Those are the most recent things in 2005. We can’t figure out what “FTC/WITH CCP” means. I am guessing “FTC” means failure to comply. The weird thing is in one spot it says “Commenced by:
JDR Appeal”, which is am pretty sure “JDR” means Juvenile and Domestic Relations Court. He was definitely not a juvenile in 2005. I searched all over for “CCP”, and I couldn’t find anything it could be. I am guessing maybe he got in trouble for giving alcohol to a minor, he got in a fight with a minor, or maybe he has a kid and the mom took him to court for child support. I am not sure if you go to juvenile court for child support. I am sure my mom knows, I’ll ask her.

So since he hasn’t been to court since the last one that says “fugitive”, I guess that means he is wanted?

This is every charge on there:

GRAND LARCENY (x2)
CONSPIRACY
FTC/WITH CCP
CONTEMPT OF COURT-FTA
VIOLATION OF PROBATION
RECEIVE STOLEN PROPERTY
FORGE PUBLIC RECORDS (x3)
SUSPENDED LICENSE

That’s one hell of a record. We are 100% sure it’s him. It has his birthday and everything (without the year).

I started looking up everybody I know from Virginia. There are 4 things from my ex Chris. The last one is violation of probation in 2002, and it also says fugitive. The only other person I found something on was Drew for illegal possession of alcohol and public intoxication. That is totally him lol. I can just imagine him causing trouble being intoxicated.

Oh yeah, I found crap on Sarah and her husband too. I looked up EVERYBODY, even my parents lol. I went to “civil”, and I found my mom and birth father’s divorce. Oh yeah, my birth father has a record too.

Then Allyson’s friend was raped by her step-dad (the friend’s). We saw that, and then I look him up on the sex offenders registry, and his picture was there and everything. It’s creepy looking at the sex offenders website and finding all the ones that live near you. I am glad I did though. There was one in the apartments across the street, but he’s wanted, so I doubt he lives there anymore. But I would like to know if one lives in my apartments, just in case. No one did though.

So now I know how to find out shit about guys, if I ever feel like being with another guy again. I am kind of over them right now.

If Allyson’s brother is wanted, and the cops can’t find him, there’s no way we will.

It’s wayyy cool to stalk people

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Beach

I am going to a deserted beach, at least there should be no people there. By where all the RICH houses (like millions of dollars), there’s a beach that tourists don’t go to. There’s two places I can go. Well, there’s more than two places tourists don’t go to, but only two of them are nice places. Christy asked if we should to to the beach on the Navy base, but that beach is crappy if I remember correctly. Christy said there’s those little white sand crabs everywhere. No thanks. There are also some place people go swimming around here that no one is at, but it’s really the Chesapeake Bay (longest bridge in the WORLD (not according to me, for real)! been over it plenty of times. it has 2 tunnels also.), and it kind of smells there and is not really a beach.

Christy wakes me up allllll the time, but it’s okay, I’d rather do something than sleep in. I feel bad because I accused her of something yesterday.

Maybe I’ll bring my nice camera. Since there shouldn’t be people there, I am not as scared about it getting stolen. My brother got his shoes stolen at the beach once. I’ll probably only take one picture. I don’t know what there is to take pictures of at the beach.

Edit-
OMG, seriously. I just tweeted something, and it’s so true. Some people I know are so dumb. My mom was going through her pantry and wondering why she has corn hash (she doesn’t eat it, I suppose). I asked my cousin what it was and she said she didn’t know. So she just walks in my room and tells me she knows what corn hash is. She says it’s a drug. Yeah, my mom had a drug in her pantry, or in her house for that matter. I said, “Ally, hash is a name for some kind of pot.” Seriously, I am going to blog every dumb thing this girl says to me. She is ridiculously dumb. If you could only hear some of the things she says. She’s a little book smart, but damn she has no common sense. She’s not the only one I know like that either. But she seriously meant CORN HASH is a drug. My mom must be using drugs.

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I suck

Me: We need to go to the grocery store soon
My cousin: When?
Me: When we start starving

So Ally made some spaghetti. I see she has one of those bottles of parmesan cheese in her hand. I said “I have parmesan cheese? You better check the date on that.” It was March 2007 lol.

I am going to make a horrible wife and mother. That’s why I don’t want kids because I seriously will not be a good mom. My apartment used to be spotless, now I am just lazy.

It’s wayyyyy to smoky out to sit outside, so I am not going to the beach. I want to go to Ocean Breeze, but I should not spend almost $50, and the smoky thing. I want to go to Water Country USA, but it will take a bit of gas, plus it’s a lot more expensive than Ocean Breeze, but way better. I am being like super cheap when I am just going to waste the money anyways. I don’t know. It’s definitely too late to go to Water Country USA. It would probably be a waste to go to Ocean Breeze too (10 minutes away at the most). I want to go when it’s really sunny out at like 11am… so I can get scabs on my chest from sunburn like last time lol. I’m making sure I don’t get burnt anymore though. I bought SPF 70. I don’t want skin cancer. Stupid to say when you smoke, but at least it’s one less cancer.

My cousin is an idiot. Seriously. She just asked me if Charles Manson is in prison for the rest of his life.

I’m freaking over Super Mario Brothers and Super Mario Brothers 3. It’s so funny how I remember exactly where every single hidden thing is. It’s nice to beat my cousin at a video game too. But I am over video games. She wants to play them 24/7. I get sick of them quick as shit.

I have to go let my neighbors dog out now. I’m boredddddd. When I go out with friends, I have to pay for me alone. When I go out with my cousin, I have to pay for both of us

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I think I’ll go to th beach today. Christy called and woke me up and asked me if I want to do something with Jake and her. She said she doesn’t know if they’ll do something or not. She reminds me of my psychiatrist. My psychiatrist has kids, and she works a ton, and they both are kind of ditzy or whatever. I’m sure it’s because of how busy they are. They just forget a lot of stuff. They both act totally sleep deprived. There’s not soooo much we can do today because she has her son. I know you can still do crap, but some stuff is a pain in the ass with him because he is kind of wild. He cries, screams and throws fits a lot.

If not, I guess I’ll go to the beach with my cousin. I have to watch her this weekend because my mom is in NY, and she can’t be trusted all that much. It’s going to be 97 degrees today, so if we go to the beach, we are parking closer to it. I can get a spot 3 blocks away from it without paying, and I live 5 blocks away lol. It’s not a long walk at all, but it is when it’s hot as shit. It may be kind of boring there with my cousin though. At least there’s shit to talk about with Christy. My cousin is just sooooo freaking immature. My 12 year old sister is more mature than her.

My nosy neighbor asked me to take her dog out every day between 3 and 3:30. Her son is in the hospital because he has Crohn’s disease. He’s been in there for a month and has had two surgeries. She said he’ll be in there for like 3 more weeks. We’ve both lived here for a long time and talked a lot, but I am surprised she trusts me enough to give me a key to her place. Well, she’s putting it under her mat until she gets a copy. I’d trust her too though. Just don’t trust me to water your plants lol. I killed Christy’s plants like 2 years ago when they were out of town. I felt so bad, but she would have killed them eventually too. At least I brought her mail in. I’m not a very reliable person. I am trustworthy, but not reliable.

I hope it’s not smoky outside (from the Great Dismal Swamp wildfire). My dogs are lying in bed with me, so I haven’t taken them out yet. I started to drive to my mom’s last night and it was raining so hard that I got off the first exit and turned around. I was scared to go down the two streets I can to get home because they both flood like hell. A long time ago I drove my car in a lot of water and totaled it. It was a street to get to my mom’s, so that’s also one reason why I turned around. Besides that I couldn’t see shit and everyone was doing 20mph and stopping on the interstate and people pulled over everywhere, even where there was no room to be pulled over there and people had to change lanes to get around them. I hate when it gets like that. I definitely learned my lesson to not drive when it rains like that because some streets flood bad.

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:(

I was forced to delete a lot of crap I wrote on here recently. It’s insaneeeeeeeeeee. It’s probably not a good idea to tell me like ABSOLUTELY GIGANTIC secrets. I won’t ever say a word though. I absolutely cannot say a word about this. It’s not gossip either. It has nothing to do with any kind of drama. It’s HUGE shit. I thought the simple stuff I said would be okay, but it apparently wasn’t.

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Crap - lots of stuff deleted

I know two crazy things about two different people. I was told NOT to write it on my site by both people lol. One of the things I DEFINITELY cannot say because it’s HUGE.

(Had to delete a lot of stuff)

I played WoW for 3 hours Tuesday!!!!! A nerd helped me. Now I get it. I should have been able to figure it out on my own because it was easy, but I just didn’t bother. I still probably won’t play it unless I play with him.

Christy and my brother are going to Crue Fest. I bought my ticket today. I still got charged the fees at the grocery store, and they went up $5 on the website. I read on the site that you have to go to the box office to not get charged the fee I think “convenience” fees are dumb as hell. Concert tickets and paying my electric bill online are the only times I’ve been charged them.

I was also thinking about exactly why they have this new rule at the beach that you cannot park on the streets 3 or 4 days near the 4th of July and Memorial Day weekend (you can’t ever park there any night past 8pm). This city is so freaking greedy that they know how many tickets they will be giving out and how much money they will make. The only places people can park are the meter spots and paid parking lots and garages. I know for sure that there are not enough spots for all the people that will be here. I know everything about the beach. I have lived here my whole life. Virginia Beach residents don’t even get parking passes. The only reason I got one is because I live at the beach. You have to live right down here at the beach to get one. I don’t care, I HATE tourists anyway. I will be SOOOOOOO pissed if they start parking in private parking lots because of that… like my spot. It’s almost impossible to get them towed because the tow truck companies are so busy. I’ve tried a few times on the 4th of July, but it hasn’t happened in a couple years. I’m sure I won’t be driving home though. Jake is making sangria.

If you park in the wrong spot, you WILL get a ticket. They have people on scooters all day and night long going down all the roads. I’ve gotten one before for parking in a spot for taxis. I forget how much it was (I was 19), but it was worth it because there was no other spots, it was hot as shit, I wanted to see Dede play in the sand soccer tournament, and I was not walking 14 blocks.

You know what’s crazy? You probably don’t care if you got this far lol. They hold they East Coast Surfing Championship here. The waves here SUCK. Any surfer will tell you that.

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PETA and somehow got into nerdy talk

I added PETA to my myspace, and they posted a bulletin about volunteering. I signed up since the PETA headquarters is 30 minutes and 20 miles away (according to mapquest). The only thing that sucks is Norfolk scares the hell out of me because it’s so confusing. Or maybe it’s not, but I never go there except to Sarah’s, and she doesn’t live downtown. It is right down the street from Norfolk General Hospital where I have to go to get my lap-band fills now and where I had my surgery. I refuse to drive there myself.

I want to volunteer there so bad. I would feel kid of bad that I eat meat and all. Of course I am not going to bring a hamburger in there or something. Could you imagine lol. OMG, I love PETA and respect people that can manage to not eat meat, but that would be SO hilarious. But I read the FAQ, and they said only some positions require you to be a vegan.

I’m supposed to go there on Wednesday. I’m supposed to “socialize with like-minded people, snack on delicious vegan food, and receive updates about PETA’s campaigns.” Haha.

I think I’ll do it though. It’s just that I am kind of shy (not anti-social, at all), and I’d feel weird. “Ummm… hi, I’m Marie, I love animals.” I don’t know shit about PETA barely because I REFUSE to read their articles and watch their videos because they would scar me for life. Maybe if I did I would stop eating meat, but I looooove meat. All the other crap, I don’t want to know about because it will upset me wayyyyyyy too much. I refused to watch the Oprah show about puppy mills. I am just way to sensitive about that shit.

They used to play ads over and over on TV of dogs that needed homes in the local SPCAs. I would watch that shit when I was a teenager and just sit there and cry and cry.

People joke PETA, but I loooooove them, and I would so give them a ton of money if I was rich as hell. I’ve donated money to them before.

Or maybe I should just volunteer at the SPCA. My old boss at my web design job worked there for a really long time. He is was wayyyyyy overqualified for the job, but he loves animals like I do. I know for sure he’d get me a volunteer job there. I have his number, and he’s my myspace friend. I went to see him at the SPCA before, and he showed me all the rooms. He’s a totally great guy. I would die to work for him again, but he got some job programming for the government or some shit. He said his business a huge pain in the ass, so he quit it. He was way cool though. I’d be like “hey Rob, I had sex last night.” He told me a bunch of shit about him too. His wife was cool too. I really like him, and he’ll be my friend for life, even though we don’t talk much.

I was 19, knew barely anything about web design, but who can’t copy and paste lol. I knew enough to edit shit and do simple things he would tell me to do. He actually taught me Cold Fusion. I wasn’t all great or anything, but I made my very own script with it BY HAND! Remember when that “clique” shit that used to be popular? I mad a script with cold fusion to enter it in a database when someone signs up to be added to one, and from the admin you could approve or deny them, and it would add them to the members page on the site if you approved. Simple, but it was cool. I totally forget everything about it now. The only thing that sucked back then is most servers didn’t have cold fusion on them (don’t know if they do now), so I couldn’t just give the script away to people. I had to pay extra to get cold fusion on my hosting plan with Endore at the time (a hosting company way gone). I would so die to learn everything from him again. He was so smart. It was like free schooling. He was someone to talk to about nerdy things when my real life friends get nothing about computers or web shit.

I just don’t get into any kind of shit with my website anymore. I don’t make my layouts or anything. I would rather stare at codes all day long than design a graphic. I never got into anything with graphics. Most people like that more. I am surprised that HTML does not bore me, AT ALL. I used to help people that had no clue what they were doing. Everyone would tell their friends with web pages to IM me if they couldn’t figure something out. If I couldn’t figure something out, I’d sit there for hours trying to figure it out because it didn’t bore me. Now… CSS confuses me for the most part, but it wasn’t used for whole entire web pages back then (that I knew about).

Remember GreyMatter? Gosh, WP is SO much better. I remember rebuilding those damn files after you’ve had your website for a long time and it took forever. I barely even updated my site much then, and it took forever. Then I discovered headers and footers and didn’t have to go through that shit lol.

I got my first cable modem when I was 18. It was wayyyy more complicated to set up with Windows 98, and I always had problems with it, and the cable companies would have to send someone out to set them up, and they charged you a huge fee for it.

I have sat there for hours making my site Valid XHTML a couple years ago. With hundreds of errors. I just don’t give a crap anymore. I had never even heard anyone mention valid XHTML on their blog, and I asked someone for help on a WP forum (maybe?), and they tell me I have a ton of errors. I am like “huh?” “What does that mean?” So I looked it up, and I fixed everything. Even shit like wordpress search forms giving me errors.

I should do stuff again.

This is the last web site I made: http://lovebugzchildcare.info/. I know the eyes on the ladybug look funky. It was a free image and I edited the hell out of it, and I suck so I couldn’t get the eyes to look good. But I am proud of it because I did the whole website by hand except for looking up a lot of shit. Edit- Oops, sorry, just looked at the source. I didn’t make the image rollover thing, obviously. /Edit

I don’t think I ever linked it before because I honestly do not trust the people that read my site anymore. I guess it’s the web and everyone should be careful, but I never felt that way before. I never felt shitty because some guy wouldn’t leave me alone and found this site, and I never had anyone try to start drama by emailing someone on my friends list on mysapce.

I’ve really been thinking of just getting rid of this site for good because I don’t like feeling that way. I change my mind all the time, so who knows, but there is a lot of crap I don’t say on here now. I also deleted a post about something that happened between Drew and I. I feel like some people just think I am insane and come up with shit or something, and I SWEAR TO GOD, I DO NOT! I have been through a lot of crazy stuff, and I am 100%%%% honest on here. The only shit I lied about was not talking to Andrew when Steve was reading my site, and only because he was reading my site.

Then I felt sick for so long and I complained about everything. I thought some people may think I was just being all crazy and bipolar. What I went through was not fun though, and I was having serious problems. The two days I couldn’t go to the bathroom, that was probably the second most painful thing I’ve been through, but I didn’t go to the ER so I didn’t seem like a drama queen. It was, hands down, more painful than my surgery. The only thing more painful than that was an anxiety attack I had on acid, and nothing can ever top that. I’ve heard of people having problems with going to the bathroom and how painful it is, but you don’t know what it’s like unless you have it bad. My mom has the problem, I had never before then, and I would laugh at her when she complained about it. I was like “how bad could it be?” It sucks fucking ass, and I had it BADDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!

Shit, I have to wake up earlyyyyy. Goodnight, and I’m not manic, just really talkative.

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